today's my eldest brother's birthday! happy birthday bro!!! happy 22 years old! hahaha.
went shopping at bugis and far east yesterday. saw xiulian at bugis street, so short i couldn't notice her lah. haha. my bro decided to buy the geisha cap from headbug ji ding mao. it cost a bomb i think? about $120 i guess.
then went far east with a cough. sadly, they're having a food fair and i can't eat anything. not even the cheese chicken thingy from the british food shop. sadness... finally found our sweatpants though. hard to find but fun to find. hahaha. went to foreplay to look for new designs, sadly only 1 design caught our eyes, so din't buy any shirt from there. went to STAGE n nCore. nothing new. haiz...
went to the Heeren. saw the Sexy Diamond shop. was like stunned 'coz i din't know they were in SGP already. walked around. went to Ed Hardy and FleshImp. really beautiful designs in Ed Hardy, and the Transformers shirt from FLMP was damn nice. but din't buy it. saw the BBoy battle and went home!
today, i went to church. something real funny happened. was like waiting to go up the chapel since the english department were using it first, then saw yin die. what a beautiful sight. then she went in the MPH, and came out, and suddenly ask me if i wanted to see her sister's photo. i was like not interested since i guess yin die would be prettier, then my bro struck! he said he wanted to see but then yin die was like only want to let me see. so my bro nudge me to see the photo. in the end, unwillingly i went up to wanna take a look, but then yin die's friend suddenly say don't want to let me see. so my brother was so damn disappointed, he announced us brothers no more. again. haha. was funny to me lah. maybe not to you readers. lol.
it's late, sleep early and have a good night.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
empty...
battling with cough now. i wonder how i got it, but it's not subsiding. went to see a doctor in the morning and he gave me some syrup that causes drowsiness. so my mind cannot really think well now. haha.
it's been days since i last seen her, kinda misses her looks. but oh well, that's reality.
been trying to mug since monday. but now i'm quite lost to what to study. guess i have to keep revising and revising? hate computing now. don't know what to study for it. luckily it's the last test. haiz.
can't think of anything to write now... so bye bye!
it's been days since i last seen her, kinda misses her looks. but oh well, that's reality.
been trying to mug since monday. but now i'm quite lost to what to study. guess i have to keep revising and revising? hate computing now. don't know what to study for it. luckily it's the last test. haiz.
can't think of anything to write now... so bye bye!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
i'm back!!!
yes! i'm back from church camp!!! haha. this camp was damn fun. 'coz i was the facilitator! it's really fun to lead rather than follow. but without the followers' cooperation, this camp would not be fun! haha. let's brief through what happened during the 3days 2nights camp! our theme was chronicles of narnia, the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe.
1st day. reached church at 8.15am. was late, but there's even later people! haha. blame my brother for making me late lah. tsk! anyway, prepared and opened the registration booth by 9am. the campers start flowing in and slowly they got into three different groups. some were late though. we the facilitators started to do our jobs. we began ice-breaking games with the groups. we were not assigned, so in the end i chose the green group, since green is my favourite colour! played for awhile, even though there were few awkward breaks since everyone wasn't familiar with each other, but my hardwork eventually 'broke' the ice! haha. then we went to the basketball court to play double whacko with the whole group of campers! was damn fun. the best thing is, i managed to pull the basketball rim!!! damn damn damn cool lah. it's like my first time can!!! woooo!!! after that, played some IQ games so they could decide who to be the first to choose their group names. had worship for 1 hour and lunch. then decided their group name. green group of GRIFFIN!!! nice name lah. the polar bears (facilitators) did their warcry and wow, i shouted so loudly i could feel my adam apple breaking apart! haha. joking joking. then went to help the griffins plan their warcry and painted their banner. after that, we took off to our campsite, changi aloha beach! the quarantine area!!! XD!!! on the bus, i played staring contest with yin die (silver butterfly, in chinese), a primary 5 girl. she's damn cute lah! really! no joke! haha. eh then checked into the bungalow, fairy point 7. damn big lah the place. everything was nice. faci room was a out of bound area, so cool! the campers keep thinking we got some great secrets inside lah. but then, our room was the only room with no air-con... ZZZZzzz. after the campers checked in, had a little briefing, then dinner time! after dinner, some of them played at the cliff with cardboards to slide down. shou zhan keep calling yin die ah-lian lah. but still... she's cute! haha. then me and my brother was like battling who can impress yin die more. but apparently, we didn't do anything much, since we got things to do! washed up and had worship! after that was quiet time and well, while the rest go sleep, we the polar bears tied 1800 water bombs in 3hrs! fat fat jia jun was like drunk without sleep and getting high just because we tied so many water bombs. haha. after that, me and jj went up to boy's room 3 and sleep in the air-con room! we slept at 3am...
day 2. woke up at 6am, only 3hours sleep. prepared breakfast and had worship. started to play morning games. me and jj was in charged of build and destroy. a game where to build castle walls with paper cups, and destroy them with tissue balls. haha. had fun there. griffin won the most point there also!!! hahaha. then 2hours later, lunch. after that, afternoon games. me and jj was in charged of scary box! we had loads of fun there too. we had chicken feet, pig's tongue, mashed hard boil eggs with shell, burnt marshmellows as our top killers! haha. i walked around to see the different games going on, and unnoticingly helping griffin in mummy game. only 2 people know how to tie water bombs out of the whole team!!! omg! saw a lil conflict at this station too. lol. after 4hrs of non-stop games, the campers had dinner and worship. griffin won best banner and second overall winners! not bad! quiet time over, then for no reason, yin die suddenly came and gave me oreos lah, but never gave my brother. then my brother announce me and him, brothers no more! hahaha. okay... then while the campers went to sleep, the faci had discussion till 2.30am. so deeply heartfelt. sleeped at room 3 with jj again.
day 3. woke up at 6.30am. packed up and cleaned up the area. played some games with the faci while the campers wait outside. then was ready to go off. sat in front of yin die in the bus coz some of the faci were put in charge of the bus. me, my bro and sui koon went up bus 1. haha. k so chatted with yin die, and she's ain't local! wow. reached church and had overall debrief. after release, some campers stayed back to watch movie, to my surprise, yin die bought me green tea for no reason, again! luckily my brother left already. haha. then went home with weijie and shared my experience in this camp.
really really nice memories and well, got to know the younger christians a little better. nice experiences and pretty memories. all this will be kept in my mind for sure! got to go! may edit this post since it was rushed! yin die is really cute lah, but i'm not in love with her, don't think too much! haha.
1st day. reached church at 8.15am. was late, but there's even later people! haha. blame my brother for making me late lah. tsk! anyway, prepared and opened the registration booth by 9am. the campers start flowing in and slowly they got into three different groups. some were late though. we the facilitators started to do our jobs. we began ice-breaking games with the groups. we were not assigned, so in the end i chose the green group, since green is my favourite colour! played for awhile, even though there were few awkward breaks since everyone wasn't familiar with each other, but my hardwork eventually 'broke' the ice! haha. then we went to the basketball court to play double whacko with the whole group of campers! was damn fun. the best thing is, i managed to pull the basketball rim!!! damn damn damn cool lah. it's like my first time can!!! woooo!!! after that, played some IQ games so they could decide who to be the first to choose their group names. had worship for 1 hour and lunch. then decided their group name. green group of GRIFFIN!!! nice name lah. the polar bears (facilitators) did their warcry and wow, i shouted so loudly i could feel my adam apple breaking apart! haha. joking joking. then went to help the griffins plan their warcry and painted their banner. after that, we took off to our campsite, changi aloha beach! the quarantine area!!! XD!!! on the bus, i played staring contest with yin die (silver butterfly, in chinese), a primary 5 girl. she's damn cute lah! really! no joke! haha. eh then checked into the bungalow, fairy point 7. damn big lah the place. everything was nice. faci room was a out of bound area, so cool! the campers keep thinking we got some great secrets inside lah. but then, our room was the only room with no air-con... ZZZZzzz. after the campers checked in, had a little briefing, then dinner time! after dinner, some of them played at the cliff with cardboards to slide down. shou zhan keep calling yin die ah-lian lah. but still... she's cute! haha. then me and my brother was like battling who can impress yin die more. but apparently, we didn't do anything much, since we got things to do! washed up and had worship! after that was quiet time and well, while the rest go sleep, we the polar bears tied 1800 water bombs in 3hrs! fat fat jia jun was like drunk without sleep and getting high just because we tied so many water bombs. haha. after that, me and jj went up to boy's room 3 and sleep in the air-con room! we slept at 3am...
day 2. woke up at 6am, only 3hours sleep. prepared breakfast and had worship. started to play morning games. me and jj was in charged of build and destroy. a game where to build castle walls with paper cups, and destroy them with tissue balls. haha. had fun there. griffin won the most point there also!!! hahaha. then 2hours later, lunch. after that, afternoon games. me and jj was in charged of scary box! we had loads of fun there too. we had chicken feet, pig's tongue, mashed hard boil eggs with shell, burnt marshmellows as our top killers! haha. i walked around to see the different games going on, and unnoticingly helping griffin in mummy game. only 2 people know how to tie water bombs out of the whole team!!! omg! saw a lil conflict at this station too. lol. after 4hrs of non-stop games, the campers had dinner and worship. griffin won best banner and second overall winners! not bad! quiet time over, then for no reason, yin die suddenly came and gave me oreos lah, but never gave my brother. then my brother announce me and him, brothers no more! hahaha. okay... then while the campers went to sleep, the faci had discussion till 2.30am. so deeply heartfelt. sleeped at room 3 with jj again.
day 3. woke up at 6.30am. packed up and cleaned up the area. played some games with the faci while the campers wait outside. then was ready to go off. sat in front of yin die in the bus coz some of the faci were put in charge of the bus. me, my bro and sui koon went up bus 1. haha. k so chatted with yin die, and she's ain't local! wow. reached church and had overall debrief. after release, some campers stayed back to watch movie, to my surprise, yin die bought me green tea for no reason, again! luckily my brother left already. haha. then went home with weijie and shared my experience in this camp.
really really nice memories and well, got to know the younger christians a little better. nice experiences and pretty memories. all this will be kept in my mind for sure! got to go! may edit this post since it was rushed! yin die is really cute lah, but i'm not in love with her, don't think too much! haha.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
memories...
it's been quite a long time since you left us... you bastard raveo... you left me just like how toric left me two years ago. so sudden, so surprising. i thought you would be cleverer, i thought i could let you do what you want since i trust you. but you not only broke the trust, but lose the bond, lose yourself. i blamed myself, why leave the clan when everything seems not right. i thought breaking it up would be a better choice than keeping it going. but when 'uncle' and 'cousin' left us, i have to do this choice, along side with the seniors, don't i. now that i can no longer see you, speak with you, or spar with you, i really felt a lost. it's common to see people dying because of what we do, but it's inevitable to be sad when the person who died is your friend. it's hard to let this thought begone, just like how i still can't forget toric, you'll always be in my memories. we'll always love you raveo, no matter where you are.
it's hard to break through the barrier, it's hard to control myself. it's a thin line between concern and obsession. i don't want to fall into the latter. please help me God. please help me...
i always put a hard front, however, deep inside me, i could not just take it anymore. i hope my life was a little bit smooth sailing, but everytime, it just gets worse. i know that how i feel will affect how people feel, therefore i must put on a happy front so everyone else feels happy. but everytime i see you, this front just could not stand, and my ugly side will show. people assiociate me to emo whenever this side shows up. but it's hard to control, nor will it pass like nobody's business. my pink watch is a way to remind myself to stay happy, for if i don't bother how people see me, and i know that it's how i carry myself makes me, i will feel good. but the society is cruel, people judge by your surface, and how you seem to them, but they never look deep, and never bother to try. all you can do is, accept the fact, and forget them. but it's not as easy to forget, than easy to forgive. :(
i just have bad moods nowadays because everyone makes you seems useless. when your family critisizes you, and not accept the explanations you give. it sucks. when you also finally think that you yourself is useless, it just sucks more. no one see what you gives in, but what you achieve. when you managed to achieve something, they demand more. sometimes, things you hope will happen, just don't, and it gets worse and worse. you're just plain useless lah dennis. shit.
today, while thinking of raveo, and how useless i am, i walked in northpoint alone, avoiding going home to receive negative remarks, an auntie approached me. she kindly gave me $10 shopping voucher due to some circumstances. wow. lucky me. went to library to read some comics. captain america just taught me loads. but i'm still in a bad mood, putting a strong front. luckily, no negative comments was heard when i reached home. many times i hope i could just cry it out, but it just doesn't work out that way. i can't cry, and i have no support. i just swallow it down, and make myself feel heavy. this feeling suck.
i'm a attention seeker, i can't stay insignificant, but i feel insignificant, and that feeling suck to the max. sorry 'cousin' leo. i hope i can feel happier too, but no factor comes in. it just keeps going out. out. out.
it's hard to break through the barrier, it's hard to control myself. it's a thin line between concern and obsession. i don't want to fall into the latter. please help me God. please help me...
i always put a hard front, however, deep inside me, i could not just take it anymore. i hope my life was a little bit smooth sailing, but everytime, it just gets worse. i know that how i feel will affect how people feel, therefore i must put on a happy front so everyone else feels happy. but everytime i see you, this front just could not stand, and my ugly side will show. people assiociate me to emo whenever this side shows up. but it's hard to control, nor will it pass like nobody's business. my pink watch is a way to remind myself to stay happy, for if i don't bother how people see me, and i know that it's how i carry myself makes me, i will feel good. but the society is cruel, people judge by your surface, and how you seem to them, but they never look deep, and never bother to try. all you can do is, accept the fact, and forget them. but it's not as easy to forget, than easy to forgive. :(
i just have bad moods nowadays because everyone makes you seems useless. when your family critisizes you, and not accept the explanations you give. it sucks. when you also finally think that you yourself is useless, it just sucks more. no one see what you gives in, but what you achieve. when you managed to achieve something, they demand more. sometimes, things you hope will happen, just don't, and it gets worse and worse. you're just plain useless lah dennis. shit.
today, while thinking of raveo, and how useless i am, i walked in northpoint alone, avoiding going home to receive negative remarks, an auntie approached me. she kindly gave me $10 shopping voucher due to some circumstances. wow. lucky me. went to library to read some comics. captain america just taught me loads. but i'm still in a bad mood, putting a strong front. luckily, no negative comments was heard when i reached home. many times i hope i could just cry it out, but it just doesn't work out that way. i can't cry, and i have no support. i just swallow it down, and make myself feel heavy. this feeling suck.
i'm a attention seeker, i can't stay insignificant, but i feel insignificant, and that feeling suck to the max. sorry 'cousin' leo. i hope i can feel happier too, but no factor comes in. it just keeps going out. out. out.
Friday, May 29, 2009
a little better...
haha. today is GP block test! and i hope i fare well! even though i was tired. haha.
okay, so after GP block test, is the MT block test. me who doesn't have MT, kinda thought of emoing a little. since i have no friends around me! but luckily, i saw a bunch of people playing basketball. so i joined in. MAN I WAS SO HAPPY!!! my team includes chin yang and alvin, both of the best bball players in YJC! so practically, i was carried! but we lost no matches! and their constant encouragements made me like bball even more! i mean, in sports, there can only be two things happening. scolding you when you screw up, or encouraging you even more when you screw up. they are the second type of people! haha. but they are good lah. that's why we never lost. however, both of them got injured, so hope they recover really well?
one week of not having a proper chat with her kinda feels empty lah. haha. but fret not! i'm not emo! haha. i guess i'll get used to it real soon... life still suck though. people were asking me why i stay in school so late when i don't even have MT block test, some more i'm sick lah. but i just love screwing my life up lah. i don't know why but... it's just another way to see her more i guess? hehe.
okay, my friend was just telling me, if you're not happy, don't watch porn, they make you feel disgusted. ANIMALS!!!
oh anyway, last saturday is still stucked in my mind! i don't know why but i can still remember them damn clearly! but i'm a total retard lah. wasting all the opportunities just because i'm tired. blah...
anyway, who ever is reading this, please sleep early! i beg you!!!
okay, so after GP block test, is the MT block test. me who doesn't have MT, kinda thought of emoing a little. since i have no friends around me! but luckily, i saw a bunch of people playing basketball. so i joined in. MAN I WAS SO HAPPY!!! my team includes chin yang and alvin, both of the best bball players in YJC! so practically, i was carried! but we lost no matches! and their constant encouragements made me like bball even more! i mean, in sports, there can only be two things happening. scolding you when you screw up, or encouraging you even more when you screw up. they are the second type of people! haha. but they are good lah. that's why we never lost. however, both of them got injured, so hope they recover really well?
one week of not having a proper chat with her kinda feels empty lah. haha. but fret not! i'm not emo! haha. i guess i'll get used to it real soon... life still suck though. people were asking me why i stay in school so late when i don't even have MT block test, some more i'm sick lah. but i just love screwing my life up lah. i don't know why but... it's just another way to see her more i guess? hehe.
okay, my friend was just telling me, if you're not happy, don't watch porn, they make you feel disgusted. ANIMALS!!!
oh anyway, last saturday is still stucked in my mind! i don't know why but i can still remember them damn clearly! but i'm a total retard lah. wasting all the opportunities just because i'm tired. blah...
anyway, who ever is reading this, please sleep early! i beg you!!!
Monday, May 25, 2009
simply sad...
i don't know why i should be feeling this way. but it just got into me really seriously. i mean, who am i to get jealous of all this things, not like you're already mine or anything. but every tiny little bit of things that happen, i just hope i was the one and not the rest. i don't know why i feel heartbroken, when tiny little things occur, i thought i lost it all. it sucks to be me, it sucks. i want to tell you everything, but my courage just fades every second as it passes. just a little action, i can emo for the whole day. i kept telling myself, you're not even mine, i should not even care so much, but i can't control myself to be jealous. i mean, i just know you just one month ago, yet i feel so much pain as if i know you for years. i don't know what's wrong with me, but i guess the devil is toying with my feelings.
it's hard to keep it on, and it's hard to let it go, i just hope this feeling will fade, as i try to forget how important you are to me.
emo fuck lah dennis, wake up idiot!
it's hard to keep it on, and it's hard to let it go, i just hope this feeling will fade, as i try to forget how important you are to me.
emo fuck lah dennis, wake up idiot!
Monday, May 18, 2009
blahahahaha
get well really fast dumb dumb claire! tell you rest early everyday don't want lah. see now what happened. XD!!!
anyway, today is fun lah. coz' my cousin dared me to not sms anyone, espiecially the person i sms to the most, for half a day, and i did it! haha. was hard lah, but then thanks to myself, i managed to win this dare, and $2!!! XP!!! stupid... sorry anyway!!!
then was council investiture rehersal. i mean you can't find any fun from there one lah. but then, at least i was the one who tried to be a clown and made everyone happy. haha. i love my council family!!! espiecially the feedback group. grandpa president shaocong, papa vp chinrong, mama vp cassandra, big sis sangrudee, eldest bro nic chew, then me, younger brother chuping, and youngest brother aloysius. bunch of crazy people. hahaha.
so now i'm really tired, but gonna finish my maths before i go to sleep lah.
sleep early guys! don't end up like claire. XD!
anyway, today is fun lah. coz' my cousin dared me to not sms anyone, espiecially the person i sms to the most, for half a day, and i did it! haha. was hard lah, but then thanks to myself, i managed to win this dare, and $2!!! XP!!! stupid... sorry anyway!!!
then was council investiture rehersal. i mean you can't find any fun from there one lah. but then, at least i was the one who tried to be a clown and made everyone happy. haha. i love my council family!!! espiecially the feedback group. grandpa president shaocong, papa vp chinrong, mama vp cassandra, big sis sangrudee, eldest bro nic chew, then me, younger brother chuping, and youngest brother aloysius. bunch of crazy people. hahaha.
so now i'm really tired, but gonna finish my maths before i go to sleep lah.
sleep early guys! don't end up like claire. XD!
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