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sunday!

2009-06-21T07:12:00.001-07:00

today's my eldest brother's birthday! happy birthday bro!!! happy 22 years old! hahaha.

went shopping at bugis and far east yesterday. saw xiulian at bugis street, so short i couldn't notice her lah. haha. my bro decided to buy the geisha cap from headbug ji ding mao. it cost a bomb i think? about $120 i guess.

then went far east with a cough. sadly, they're having a food fair and i can't eat anything. not even the cheese chicken thingy from the british food shop. sadness... finally found our sweatpants though. hard to find but fun to find. hahaha. went to foreplay to look for new designs, sadly only 1 design caught our eyes, so din't buy any shirt from there. went to STAGE n nCore. nothing new. haiz...

went to the Heeren. saw the Sexy Diamond shop. was like stunned 'coz i din't know they were in SGP already. walked around. went to Ed Hardy and FleshImp. really beautiful designs in Ed Hardy, and the Transformers shirt from FLMP was damn nice. but din't buy it. saw the BBoy battle and went home!

today, i went to church. something real funny happened. was like waiting to go up the chapel since the english department were using it first, then saw yin die. what a beautiful sight. then she went in the MPH, and came out, and suddenly ask me if i wanted to see her sister's photo. i was like not interested since i guess yin die would be prettier, then my bro struck! he said he wanted to see but then yin die was like only want to let me see. so my bro nudge me to see the photo. in the end, unwillingly i went up to wanna take a look, but then yin die's friend suddenly say don't want to let me see. so my brother was so damn disappointed, he announced us brothers no more. again. haha. was funny to me lah. maybe not to you readers. lol.

it's late, sleep early and have a good night.

empty...

2009-06-17T04:51:00.000-07:00

battling with cough now. i wonder how i got it, but it's not subsiding. went to see a doctor in the morning and he gave me some syrup that causes drowsiness. so my mind cannot really think well now. haha.

it's been days since i last seen her, kinda misses her looks. but oh well, that's reality.

been trying to mug since monday. but now i'm quite lost to what to study. guess i have to keep revising and revising? hate computing now. don't know what to study for it. luckily it's the last test. haiz.

can't think of anything to write now... so bye bye!

i'm back!!!

2009-06-13T04:26:00.000-07:00

yes! i'm back from church camp!!! haha. this camp was damn fun. 'coz i was the facilitator! it's really fun to lead rather than follow. but without the followers' cooperation, this camp would not be fun! haha. let's brief through what happened during the 3days 2nights camp! our theme was chronicles of narnia, the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe.

1st day. reached church at 8.15am. was late, but there's even later people! haha. blame my brother for making me late lah. tsk! anyway, prepared and opened the registration booth by 9am. the campers start flowing in and slowly they got into three different groups. some were late though. we the facilitators started to do our jobs. we began ice-breaking games with the groups. we were not assigned, so in the end i chose the green group, since green is my favourite colour! played for awhile, even though there were few awkward breaks since everyone wasn't familiar with each other, but my hardwork eventually 'broke' the ice! haha. then we went to the basketball court to play double whacko with the whole group of campers! was damn fun. the best thing is, i managed to pull the basketball rim!!! damn damn damn cool lah. it's like my first time can!!! woooo!!! after that, played some IQ games so they could decide who to be the first to choose their group names. had worship for 1 hour and lunch. then decided their group name. green group of GRIFFIN!!! nice name lah. the polar bears (facilitators) did their warcry and wow, i shouted so loudly i could feel my adam apple breaking apart! haha. joking joking. then went to help the griffins plan their warcry and painted their banner. after that, we took off to our campsite, changi aloha beach! the quarantine area!!! XD!!! on the bus, i played staring contest with yin die (silver butterfly, in chinese), a primary 5 girl. she's damn cute lah! really! no joke! haha. eh then checked into the bungalow, fairy point 7. damn big lah the place. everything was nice. faci room was a out of bound area, so cool! the campers keep thinking we got some great secrets inside lah. but then, our room was the only room with no air-con... ZZZZzzz. after the campers checked in, had a little briefing, then dinner time! after dinner, some of them played at the cliff with cardboards to slide down. shou zhan keep calling yin die ah-lian lah. but still... she's cute! haha. then me and my brother was like battling who can impress yin die more. but apparently, we didn't do anything much, since we got things to do! washed up and had worship! after that was quiet time and well, while the rest go sleep, we the polar bears tied 1800 water bombs in 3hrs! fat fat jia jun was like drunk without sleep and getting high just because we tied so many water bombs. haha. after that, me and jj went up to boy's room 3 and sleep in the air-con room! we slept at 3am...

day 2. woke up at 6am, only 3hours sleep. prepared breakfast and had worship. started to play morning games. me and jj was in charged of build and destroy. a game where to build castle walls with paper cups, and destroy them with tissue balls. haha. had fun there. griffin won the most point there also!!! hahaha. then 2hours later, lunch. after that, afternoon games. me and jj was in charged of scary box! we had loads of fun there too. we had chicken feet, pig's tongue, mashed hard boil eggs with shell, burnt marshmellows as our top killers! haha. i walked around to see the different games going on, and unnoticingly helping griffin in mummy game. only 2 people know how to tie water bombs out of the whole team!!! omg! saw a lil conflict at this station too. lol. after 4hrs of non-stop games, the campers had dinner and worship. griffin won best banner and second overall winners! not bad! quiet time over, then for no reason, yin die suddenly came and gave me oreos lah, but never gave my brother. then my brother announce me and him, brothers no more! hahaha. okay... then while the campers went to sleep, the faci had discussion till 2.30am. so deeply heartfelt. sleeped at room 3 with jj again.

day 3. woke up at 6.30am. packed up and cleaned up the area. played some games with the faci while the campers wait outside. then was ready to go off. sat in front of yin die in the bus coz some of the faci were put in charge of the bus. me, my bro and sui koon went up bus 1. haha. k so chatted with yin die, and she's ain't local! wow. reached church and had overall debrief. after release, some campers stayed back to watch movie, to my surprise, yin die bought me green tea for no reason, again! luckily my brother left already. haha. then went home with weijie and shared my experience in this camp.

really really nice memories and well, got to know the younger christians a little better. nice experiences and pretty memories. all this will be kept in my mind for sure! got to go! may edit this post since it was rushed! yin die is really cute lah, but i'm not in love with her, don't think too much! haha.

memories...

2009-06-03T05:57:00.000-07:00

it's been quite a long time since you left us... you bastard raveo... you left me just like how toric left me two years ago. so sudden, so surprising. i thought you would be cleverer, i thought i could let you do what you want since i trust you. but you not only broke the trust, but lose the bond, lose yourself. i blamed myself, why leave the clan when everything seems not right. i thought breaking it up would be a better choice than keeping it going. but when 'uncle' and 'cousin' left us, i have to do this choice, along side with the seniors, don't i. now that i can no longer see you, speak with you, or spar with you, i really felt a lost. it's common to see people dying because of what we do, but it's inevitable to be sad when the person who died is your friend. it's hard to let this thought begone, just like how i still can't forget toric, you'll always be in my memories. we'll always love you raveo, no matter where you are.

it's hard to break through the barrier, it's hard to control myself. it's a thin line between concern and obsession. i don't want to fall into the latter. please help me God. please help me...

i always put a hard front, however, deep inside me, i could not just take it anymore. i hope my life was a little bit smooth sailing, but everytime, it just gets worse. i know that how i feel will affect how people feel, therefore i must put on a happy front so everyone else feels happy. but everytime i see you, this front just could not stand, and my ugly side will show. people assiociate me to emo whenever this side shows up. but it's hard to control, nor will it pass like nobody's business. my pink watch is a way to remind myself to stay happy, for if i don't bother how people see me, and i know that it's how i carry myself makes me, i will feel good. but the society is cruel, people judge by your surface, and how you seem to them, but they never look deep, and never bother to try. all you can do is, accept the fact, and forget them. but it's not as easy to forget, than easy to forgive. :(

i just have bad moods nowadays because everyone makes you seems useless. when your family critisizes you, and not accept the explanations you give. it sucks. when you also finally think that you yourself is useless, it just sucks more. no one see what you gives in, but what you achieve. when you managed to achieve something, they demand more. sometimes, things you hope will happen, just don't, and it gets worse and worse. you're just plain useless lah dennis. shit.

today, while thinking of raveo, and how useless i am, i walked in northpoint alone, avoiding going home to receive negative remarks, an auntie approached me. she kindly gave me $10 shopping voucher due to some circumstances. wow. lucky me. went to library to read some comics. captain america just taught me loads. but i'm still in a bad mood, putting a strong front. luckily, no negative comments was heard when i reached home. many times i hope i could just cry it out, but it just doesn't work out that way. i can't cry, and i have no support. i just swallow it down, and make myself feel heavy. this feeling suck.

i'm a attention seeker, i can't stay insignificant, but i feel insignificant, and that feeling suck to the max. sorry 'cousin' leo. i hope i can feel happier too, but no factor comes in. it just keeps going out. out. out.

a little better...

2009-05-29T06:30:00.000-07:00

haha. today is GP block test! and i hope i fare well! even though i was tired. haha.

okay, so after GP block test, is the MT block test. me who doesn't have MT, kinda thought of emoing a little. since i have no friends around me! but luckily, i saw a bunch of people playing basketball. so i joined in. MAN I WAS SO HAPPY!!! my team includes chin yang and alvin, both of the best bball players in YJC! so practically, i was carried! but we lost no matches! and their constant encouragements made me like bball even more! i mean, in sports, there can only be two things happening. scolding you when you screw up, or encouraging you even more when you screw up. they are the second type of people! haha. but they are good lah. that's why we never lost. however, both of them got injured, so hope they recover really well?

one week of not having a proper chat with her kinda feels empty lah. haha. but fret not! i'm not emo! haha. i guess i'll get used to it real soon... life still suck though. people were asking me why i stay in school so late when i don't even have MT block test, some more i'm sick lah. but i just love screwing my life up lah. i don't know why but... it's just another way to see her more i guess? hehe.

okay, my friend was just telling me, if you're not happy, don't watch porn, they make you feel disgusted. ANIMALS!!!

oh anyway, last saturday is still stucked in my mind! i don't know why but i can still remember them damn clearly! but i'm a total retard lah. wasting all the opportunities just because i'm tired. blah...

anyway, who ever is reading this, please sleep early! i beg you!!!

simply sad...

2009-05-25T06:49:00.000-07:00

i don't know why i should be feeling this way. but it just got into me really seriously. i mean, who am i to get jealous of all this things, not like you're already mine or anything. but every tiny little bit of things that happen, i just hope i was the one and not the rest. i don't know why i feel heartbroken, when tiny little things occur, i thought i lost it all. it sucks to be me, it sucks. i want to tell you everything, but my courage just fades every second as it passes. just a little action, i can emo for the whole day. i kept telling myself, you're not even mine, i should not even care so much, but i can't control myself to be jealous. i mean, i just know you just one month ago, yet i feel so much pain as if i know you for years. i don't know what's wrong with me, but i guess the devil is toying with my feelings.

it's hard to keep it on, and it's hard to let it go, i just hope this feeling will fade, as i try to forget how important you are to me.

emo fuck lah dennis, wake up idiot!

blahahahaha

2009-05-18T07:27:00.000-07:00

get well really fast dumb dumb claire! tell you rest early everyday don't want lah. see now what happened. XD!!!

anyway, today is fun lah. coz' my cousin dared me to not sms anyone, espiecially the person i sms to the most, for half a day, and i did it! haha. was hard lah, but then thanks to myself, i managed to win this dare, and $2!!! XP!!! stupid... sorry anyway!!!

then was council investiture rehersal. i mean you can't find any fun from there one lah. but then, at least i was the one who tried to be a clown and made everyone happy. haha. i love my council family!!! espiecially the feedback group. grandpa president shaocong, papa vp chinrong, mama vp cassandra, big sis sangrudee, eldest bro nic chew, then me, younger brother chuping, and youngest brother aloysius. bunch of crazy people. hahaha.

so now i'm really tired, but gonna finish my maths before i go to sleep lah.

sleep early guys! don't end up like claire. XD!

yawnz...

2009-05-17T07:36:00.000-07:00

quite emotional these few days. was happy then sad then angry then happy. haha.

last saturday was supposed to be a unhappy day. coz' the 24th SC suddenly called us back for investiture pre-run. was tired and unhappy coz' my body was feeling the pain i got from hurting myself unintentionally. so my body ached and stuff. luckily... had lunch with claire and had my mood lighten up a bit. went church band practise after that and... i was praised! haha. i hit the notes right at the right point. i'm the keyboardist if you guys don't know.

nothing special for sunday. if i remembered correctly, it's mother's day celebration. should be lah. haha. had lots of fun even though it was short.

the few days later sucked... monday to thursday... both floorball guys and girls lost to vjc in the semi-finals. sad but, well fought. at least the spirit was there, but then lady luck don't give chance, who's to blame? haha. got sad and got pissed off coz' of some body injuries that acted out real bad. things that i do not want to remember caught up, and jealousy took over me. so bad bad bad days.

then, some idiot irritated me so much that, on friday, he himself got sick. not that i hate him, but he's taking my joke too seriously. got angry with him and really felt like shit. but oh well. i made my mood neutral after some time, coz' got concerned with something else which is more important. so... yeah...

then yesterday, spent my whole day at home, other than going church band practise and got my haircut. my hair is like damn short now lah. by right it was supposed to pull my mood down, but then, ironically, my mood got better after that! so... i should cut my hair more? lol.

today, nothing much but just went church. my keyboardist mentor is going off to another church... so... haiz... but i'm going to go believer's music and learn serious keyboarding. like really improving my chords playing and stuff.

that's it for the day. lol.

yawnz...

2009-05-09T09:45:00.000-07:00

this few days are quite boring. could not do much about my feelings and all. my mood goes rollercoaster for no reason. they told me is stress and everything, but i seriously don't think so. i mean, yeah i'm a little crazy, but that's not possible lah. recently, i kept having thoughts that everything was against me. this definitely sucks. i was supposed to be the happy influencer of everyone, yet i got quite a few people worried for me.

luckily, yesterday while i was watching 'i shouldn't be alive', there's this part where this guy suffered so much breaking his hips and stuff, yet he still shouted this out loud. 'I CAN TAKE MORE', to God. sounds like cursing God eh? but i think he's trying to get strength from God by doing it. ( he's desperate, seriously)

okay, i did became happy for awhile yesterday. in school, i suddenly wanted to release so much energy i can. however i can't. i mean, the school doesn't offer stuff that can let me release all the energy at once, so i won't feel tired. so in the end. i turned to my cousin for help. yes i know he's supposed to be in America, he's just on a vacation to save me okay? lol. so guess what we did. we created trouble after trouble. uncountable. i can't say it here if not the police gonna catch me. haha. just troubles lah. wasn't major though. XD!

getting all this sad feelings for obvious reasons. i know life won't go smooth sailing, nothing will turn out what you want it to be. but then, if you have been experiencing it for 17 years, isn't it too much? can't blame God, it's his tests eh. will perservere on till i make it.

i always remembered what melvin said to me when i was sec1, fake it till you make it. that's gonna be how i live i guess?

i know the original sounds better, but at least wilber tried eh? haha. i still like the original better. haha.

this helped me speak alot. XD!

today is confusing!!!

2009-05-06T07:31:00.000-07:00

just a little video i made during econs tutorial!!! it was towards the end of class so i got bored and took this video lah. can hear mrs lim's voice leh!!! hahaha.

yi chen is such a fag!!! suaning me almost the whole day. gam spilled his miso soup at yoshinoya today. apparently he was tired. i gave him my soup okay! i'm such a good person. haha. oh and shengwei, he was so tired till i think he going to die. claire is still stupid. definitely. XD!

today is rather confusing day lah... i'm kinda blur of what to do. lol...

got hyper again!

2009-05-05T07:20:00.000-07:00

i got really really hyper today after the incident that happened on sunday. he up there won't want me to be sad right? so i guess it's okay if i stay my true self and get really hyper.

today, the floorball team sort of secured the semi-finals opportunity as we won IJC with a score of 5-2. marcus scored twice, with eugene, farhan, and nicholas tai. was damn happy 'cause you know these guys made the whole school proud. we will win the championship! definitely!

i felt okay till i played basketball with nikhil's friend. why was i hyper? coz i scored alot of shots! all the shots went in, even the three pointers! 80% of my three-pointer tries went in, making me damn damn damn happy! then i got really hyper after that! shengwei even think i'm crazy. maybe i am lah? hahaha.

then coach showed me the new sticks salming has. they are damn cool lah! i'm so going to get the kickzone stick or the stick with zorro blade lah! even if they are expensive! new balls please!!! the school took my black and white ball away from me!!! ARGH!!!!

anyway, thanks alot claire. your unintentional forcing me to say what bothered me lightened me alot. that's why i can get hyper so easily again. thanks alot piglet!!!

my computer suck lah. i thought reformatting my computer will make it faster, instead, it lagged like siao. my brother told me coz i never update the driver. oh well.. i'm tired.. haha.. lazy lah dennis! haiyoyo...

i'll try to update a video on my next post to show you guys some stupid stuff i did during econs. I'M SO HYPER TODAY!!!

days of emo-ing...again...

2009-05-03T07:21:00.000-07:00

i don't know what's happening these days, but i've been emo-ing after i've got flu for quite some time. maybe the flu made me sort of feel bad. i mean, i get bad moods easily when i'm tired and all. so should be 'cause of lack of sleep or something. i'm still trying to avoid to see things that makes me feel sad. maybe it's quite hard 'cause of the internet. the more you want to avoid it, the more you want to see it. i know it's bad, but i just can't control it. call it bad self-discipline, i admit.

maybe i should sleep early and let it die out real fast. won't put on a emo face in school. definitely.

mental blank...

2009-04-28T08:01:00.000-07:00

after days without updating my blog... i'm back! haha.

this week was not very entertaining. however, yesterday we won NJC floorball 4-2. was a fun and exciting match, however, i'm the scoretaker, only. ( apparently you would know if you read the previous post) but at least i can see skip classes and watch my favourite sports played by my favourite team, the YJC Vanguards. haha.

my week passed off quite normally. just a few funny highlights in my life. like claire being stupid and always bullied by me. shengwei kena 'gaying' by me. few guys friends kena 'kisses' from me. made a new friend named gamiliel. ( his name spelled that way right?) me, ibrahim, syafiee and mokthar talking about superheroes in class. tongfan kena disturbed by me again. johnathan the 'dog' kena disturbed by me again. i think alot of things happened because of me? haha. 'coz it's my life eh? haha.

however, to think of it, there are bits and pieces i do not know how to handle in my life now. i procrastinate quite alot. taking advantages to find excuses not to do my homework. getting tired and everything cause of floorball and sleeping late because of some people who just refuse to sleep early. i don't know, just feel weird.

maybe 'coz now i'm tired and can not think properly. haha.

anyway, i always get tonguetied and do not know what to say to her in front of her. anyone can give me some advices?

oh ya. to add on, YJC Nimbus won RVH 5-1. good job girls!

Claire's a lazy bum!!!

2009-04-20T07:55:00.002-07:00

haha. okay anyway~~ wasn't having such a good week lah. coz of some stupid teacher in charge of floorball... screwed my life up anyway... she's such a bitch... wanna know the story? here goes...

i had a passion for floorball, and i know it. i worked extra hard just to get into the team to represent the school. but in the end, i got in, and got kicked out. reason? that stupid teacher said i joined the student's council, and don't allow me into the team. WTF?! she was like saying, 'oh i think you should concentrate and get used to how the council work first' when i wouldn't even take over till the the end of competition?!?! then i explained to her about some council stuff that the teacher supports me to go for the competition, and will exempt me from the council camp, in the end she don't give a damn. so what happened next? she kicked me out of the team like i don't deserve the place. i mean, my name was already on the paper!!! ready to go in!!! then because of council she booted me! you know how pissed i was?! my passion is with floorball!! bloody hell, what kindof a bitch. she even screwed eugene's and some of the seniors' lives. i mean, what kind of person is she... STUPID?!

haah luckily, claire was there to hear my story and cheered me up a little with a stupidity... haha. i'm her butt by the way... lol...

i think i shouldn't post such hated blog post lah. so i'm so sorry again... hahaha.

will be posting up some photos soon so do wait k! like that jizz in my pants vid? XD!!!

oh and CLAIRE'S A LAZY BUM. XD!

I'm confused...

2009-04-15T07:09:00.000-07:00

after training today, i was posted with a question that i anticipated, but not yet ready to answer. which is, is Student Council more important to me, or floorball? i'm stuck in between as i would prefer both. yes you can call me greedy, but i really like both. joining the SC gives me the opportunity to serve the others in school, and be a decision maker. floorball gave me a great team with really fun teammates, and i really enjoy floorball. but it has to come to this. i do not know what to do. maybe after saturday when the team representing the college is finalized then i make my decision? that should be good...

anyway, this is my third post so i shall not make it sound emo lah. haha. so do forgive me.

to any one out there who is having bad mood, or feeling like shit, or even emo. look up at the sky and look at the wonders God created. you may be a free-thinker, so embrace the nature and think how wonderful it had been to you. minor details like the breeze should be good enough to make you feel good. do not dwell upon sad things that happened. you can't reverse the time, so why not make the future better for yourself? :)

oh and, i will be putting up funny videos or music videos i really like on my blog, so do check for updates!

Lock eyes from across the room
Down my drink while the rhythms boom
Take your hands, skip the names
No need here for the silly games
Make our way through the smoke and crowd
The club is the sky and I'm on your cloud
Move in close as the lasers fly
Our bodies touch and the angels cry

Leave this place go back to yours
Our lips first touch outside your doors
The whole night what we've got in store
Whisper in my ear that you want some more
And I jizz in my pants

This really never happens you can take my word
I won't apologize
That's just absurd
Mainly your fault for the way that you dance
And now I jizz in my pants
Don't tell your friends or I'll say you're a slut
Plus it's your fault
You were rubbing my butt
I'm very sensitive
Some would say thats a plus
Now I'll go home and change

I need a few things from the grocery
Do things alone now mostly
Left me heartbroken, not lookin' for love
Surprise in my eyes when I looked above
The checkout counter and I saw her face
My heart stood still so did time and space
Never thought that I could feel real again
But the look in her eyes said I need a friend
She turned to me that's when she said it
Looked me dead in the face, asked cash or credit
And I jizzed in my pants

It's perfectly normal
Nothing wrong with me
But we're going to need a cleanup
On aisle 3
And now I'm posed in an awkward stance
Because I jizzed in my pants
To be fair
You were flirting a lot
Plus the way you bag cans makes me
Bothered and hot
Please stop acting like you're not impressed
One more thing
I'm gonna pay by check

Last week, I saw a film
As I recall it was a horror film
Walked outside into the rain
Checked my phone and saw you rang
And I jizzed in my pants

Speeding in the street, when the red lights flash
Need to get away, need to make a dash
A song comes on that reminds me of you
And I jizz in my pants

The next day
My alarm goes off
And I jizz in my pants

Open the window and a breeze rolls in
And I jizz in my pants

When Bruce Willis was dead at the end of Sixth Sense
I jizzed in my pants

I just ate a grape
And I jizzed in my pants

I went to. . .
Ok seriously you guys, can we. . . . ok?

I jizz right in my pants
Every time you're next to me
And when we're holdin hands
Its like havin sex with me
You say I'm premature
I just call it ectasy
I wear a rubber at all times
Its a necessity
Cuz I jizz in my pants
(I jizz in my pants, I jizz in my pants (x3))
Yes I jizz in my pants
(I jizz in my pants, I jizz in my pants)

first to go! Jizz in my Pants by The Lonely Island.

second day

2009-04-11T07:11:00.000-07:00

i'm so sorry i can't put up the photos of the present i received. but i will just say some that i got then.

1st: a adidas bag from my eldest brother!!!
2nd: a STAGE hoodie from my elder brother!!!
3rd: a pink watch from myself!!!
4th: a sakura international buffet treat from my parents!!!
5th: hongbao from my grandma(mother's side)!!!
6th: hongbao from my mother!!!

haha. should be it for now i guess?

anyway, i would like to thank angelina my cheenah daughter and priscillia from yjc to at least make a belated birthday wishing! thanks alot!!!

check out the links beside to see which shop i always go to for clothes. some are just plain cool but i'm too poor to get them. haha.

my blog's birthday!!!

2009-04-10T06:43:00.000-07:00

'hello world!' says my blog. today is his owner's birthday, so is his! say hi!!!

okay, i know it's a little lame, but who cares! it's my birthday today!!! yeah!!! i'm officially 17 years old from today onwards, so yeah, hope i get more mature yeah?

every time when it comes to your birthday, people will ask you, make three wishes! so here's mine!

1. i want everyone i know (family, friends, etc.) to be happy no matter what happen, and if something happened, share with me!!! don't keep me in the dark pleeeeeeeeease.

2. be really successful this year. i know i've been a little screwed this few years, but i still do hope life gets better.

3. it's always meant to be a secret, but, since you're curious, i'll tell you. i want a (secret). i'm so good right. tell you my secret. haha.

yeah so, here are my three wishes. next, how did i spend my birthday? well, let me flashback kay?

i woke up at 11.30pm on 9th April to switch off my alarm. i set it for a reason though. huiyuan tell me to wake up at that time, but then... for some unknown reason, i heard the alarm, woke up, and switch it off. i'm so sorry huiyuan!!!

next i woke up at 4.38am. apparently can't sleep well. but good thing is that, there are people who send me birthday wishes at midnight!!! haha. thanks alot to huiyuan again, herlung who tried to call me but i was asleep... racheal who never call me at midnight but at around 10am? then there's victor, winson, some guai lan kias, tgc's chen ning, amol my secondary school indian brother, tgc's bear bear, amanda who told me to be a MAN, christabel my lovely sister, samantha my ultra lovely sister, shermaine my manly sister, ming zhen my primary school gay brother, honqi my very own lovely 'darling', and a few wdc's bastards, hope you guys die faster. hahaha. (i'm joking!)

then i woke up at 7.49am. was tired but could not get back to sleep, 'coz my body clock is always bastarding me. luckily, my parents woke up and brought me to jalan kayu's famous prata shop. waited 30minutes just for 3pieces of prata. was famished and irritated, but luckily, my patience is toooooo good.

then went home, did like 4 maths questions, my parents brought me out to chinatown. along the way the road towards balestier was experiencing massive jam. irritated but then it's okay, 'coz i saw a accident happened. was a minor one though. dang... (i'm joking!!!) my mum bought me roast duck, pork ribs, and some dessert made of mango paste? was godlike and really nice. i swear i will bring my future girlfriend there. haha.

then went to bugis with my elder brother with quite long hair. was raining and really squeezy and stuffy. scanned around and only found one shop really nice. the shop that customize caps. was damn cool and i swear i will make one for my future girlfriend too! maybe some of my friends on their birthday? haha. went tampines next. wanted to visit uniqlo, but then, the queue was freaking long. like maybe, 4buses long? wasn't attracted to it 'coz the shirts was like just $20. which means alot of people will buy the same clothes as you. so i prefer far east so much more now. haha.

went home then finish some maths questions. like 24 of them. then came typing typing typing. =D. then my mum told me to watch a national geographic show on jesus. COOL!!!

well, that's how i spent my 17th birthday. wasn't much fun or what. but i did spend some quality time with my family. was really good. haha.

wanna know what gifts i received? maybe tomorrow. i've got a floorball match tomorrow with the pasirians! can't lose!!!

nights blog readers!